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It can help me pull back from my suicidal thoughts and refocus on getting through another day (or just another hour). Sometimes all we can do is wait for the thoughts. The pattern of chronic suicidal thoughts is similar to that of a person with any other kind of chronic condition: For some people, there are flare-ups where the condition is far worse than normal, and then the symptoms subside, but only temporarily. And for other people, the symptoms never subside. Breaking Through to a Suicidal Mind And by the way, if you think you’re a burden, you’re not.

They often began to cry with relief and with that their suicidal thoughts and feelings. “It can definitely feel scary, but reaching out to a mental health professional is a courageous and important step, because suicidal thoughts are treatable through therapy and mental health. Just because someone is having suicidal thoughts does not mean they are planning to actually go through with killing themselves. See it first and foremost as a sign that your loved one needs help and support. Suicidal thoughts are not based on actually wanting to die; they’re based on the need to escape from emotional pain.

Having thoughts of suicide does not mean you are weak, or ‘crazy’. Many people think about suicide because they are looking for a way to escape the pain they are feeling. Even though your situationseems hopeless and you wonder if you can stand another minute of feeling this bad, there are ways to get through this and feel better. People with suicidal thoughts who have access to mental health services should try to connect with a therapist who can help. Below are five strategies that can help you to cope with suicidal.

I can’t choose to rid myself of depression and suicidal thoughts, but you can choose not to judge me for it. If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page. If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.

We want to hear your story. Managing suicidal thoughts. Get help immediately -Find someone to talk to and tell them how you are feeling. You are important and valuable.

You matter to others. Let people help you. Everyone needs support some time.

What you are struggling with is a huge challenge, but there are solutions and strategies and people available to help you. You are not alone, lots of people have thought about killing themselves and have found a way through. Having suicidal thoughts can be overwhelming and frightening.

It can be very difficult to know what to do and how to cope. You may feel very depressed or anxious or you may just feel really bad and not know what the feelings are.

List of related literature:

For more information, or if you or someone you know is thinking of committing suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or

“Alters and Schiff Essential Concepts for Healthy Living” by Jeff Housman, Mary Odum
from Alters and Schiff Essential Concepts for Healthy Living
by Jeff Housman, Mary Odum
Jones & Bartlett Learning, LLC, 2015 – Australian Institute for Suicide Research and Prevention.

“International Encyclopedia of Public Health” by Stella R. Quah
from International Encyclopedia of Public Health
by Stella R. Quah
Elsevier Science, 2016

http:// Suicide Prevention Research Centre.

“Critical Suicidology: Transforming Suicide Research and Prevention for the 21st Century” by Jennifer White, Ian Marsh, Michael J. Kral, Jonathan Morris
from Critical Suicidology: Transforming Suicide Research and Prevention for the 21st Century
by Jennifer White, Ian Marsh, et. al.
UBC Press, 2015

Telephone hotlines offer a third avenue for suicide prevention.

“The Handbook of Child and Adolescent Clinical Psychology: A Contextual Approach” by Alan Carr
from The Handbook of Child and Adolescent Clinical Psychology: A Contextual Approach
by Alan Carr
Routledge, 1999

Get help from people or agencies that are knowledgeable about intervening in crises and preventing suicide.

“Death & Dying, Life & Living” by Charles A. Corr, Donna M. Corr
from Death & Dying, Life & Living
by Charles A. Corr, Donna M. Corr
Cengage Learning, 2012

FOCUS ON COMMUNICATION Suicide A person thinking about suicide may say: i “I just don’t want to live anymore.”

“Mosby's Textbook for Nursing Assistants E-Book” by Sheila A. Sorrentino, Leighann Remmert
from Mosby’s Textbook for Nursing Assistants E-Book
by Sheila A. Sorrentino, Leighann Remmert
Elsevier Health Sciences, 2020

Suicide crisis centers have hot lines that can provide assistance from medical and mental health professionals.

“Introductory Mental Health Nursing” by Donna Womble, Cynthia Kincheloe
from Introductory Mental Health Nursing
by Donna Womble, Cynthia Kincheloe
Wolters Kluwer Health, 2019

The Suicide Information & Education Centre (SIEC) website ( also offers a specialized library on suicide.

“Psychology and the Challenges of Life” by Jeffrey S. Nevid, Spencer A. Rathus
from Psychology and the Challenges of Life
by Jeffrey S. Nevid, Spencer A. Rathus
John Wiley & Sons, 2009

Suicide prevention centers usually offer 24-hour telephone counseling services.

“Death, Society, and Human Experience” by Robert Kastenbaum, Christopher M. Moreman
from Death, Society, and Human Experience
by Robert Kastenbaum, Christopher M. Moreman
Taylor & Francis, 2018

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a free and confidential hotline where you can call for help at 1–800-273-TALK (8255).

“Personal Health: A Population Perspective” by Michele Kiely, Meredith Manze, Chris Palmedo
from Personal Health: A Population Perspective
by Michele Kiely, Meredith Manze, Chris Palmedo
Jones & Bartlett Learning, 2018

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  • how do i tell my family that i’ve been having suicidal thoughts for a while? both of my parents are very happy and if i told them they would either be devastated or take it as a joke, and i would never tell them that they are the reason the pain “started”.

  • your book ‘healing from depression’ was so comforting to me bc the first time someone TRULY understood what it is and feels like..I’ve had horrible experiences with therapists and counselors who said hurtful judgmental comments bc they had no concept odf what clinical depression and ptsd truly is. I have no funds for therapy and suicidal hotlines are hit and miss, when you call in a vulnerable state, one inocmpetent person can cause a lot of harm, I even had one hang up on me once which sent me reeling..they are not trained’s abhorrent lack of mental health care in america, I am 56 and survived so much abuse and trauma but am finding it almost impossible to keep going, I have fought to survive and find help since my teens and it’s only become worse and life much harder…I don’t know how much more I can hang on..I do believe in reincarnation so that does give me a broader perspective that this pain has some larger purpose…ty for all of your work to help so many, douglas, perhaps that was your purpose and I am glad you did not suicide bc you are helping so many others in pain

  • As someone who has has tried three* times to suicide, the first jumping of the roof, the second a meat cleaver (*big* knife,) and hanging myself all failing it pisses me off that people call people like me selfish for trying to. half the time they don’t understand a thing thats going on.

  • This is really helpful I onced tried it but I then soon realized that suicide doesn’t end the pain that you are going through but it only ends the good things happening in your life it’s hard to be in pain but that doesn’t give you the reason to end your life remember suicide doesn’t end the pain your going through but it only ends the chances of making your life better ❤️

  • Hey you I’m just here to tell you it will get better this same thing has happened to me but a few months later it got a little better now I hope you get better just don’t kill yourself it is not the answer there is people who care about you even if don’t think that

  • I really hope someone could talk to me and help right now I’m feeling so bad about myself for being a burden to my family my mom hates me doesn’t even wanna talk to me and my dad didn’t want me to eat lunch together.I feel like they are abandoning me and just wanting me to die.why was I a pain to my parents why did I born why should I live anymore when nobody even cares about me please someone help me

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    �� sont sorrow. I’m here with you. Remember someone loves you and misses you. There always a friend inside you.

  • I found this song a few days ago and I keep listening to it cause it made me realize I can’t actually do it I can’t hurt the few people who care about me I can’t do it to the few people that look up to me

  • This speaks to me so so much. I have also considered all those modes of suicide with the same countering thoughts. When it comes down to it, I just want the pain to end. It never seems to end, and I cry often but then think that I am pathetic and self-absorbed. The pain then intensifies and doesn’t go away. Also, I can’t believe his psychotherapist committed suicide:(

  • I have been doing self harm and try to run away from home twice. I tried to tell my dad (5 People in my family mom,dad,older sister and younger sister… is at least better than others) I told him I want to go to doctor. He took me to two psychiatric both of them are useless. They just want money. First psychiatric just by looking at me said my brain is not developed,I’m still a little girl(I was 16 that time). Second one just 2min ask me what’s wrong infront of my dad then gave me alot of medicine. Both of take alot of money.

    My mom and older sister think I’m coward and want other people to take care of me. Every time older sister fight with anyone,she say……. at least I don’t cut like her. I’m not coward like her. I won’t commit suicide or run away like her. She is a coward………but even dad couldn’t understand me. He say think positive. Why are you sad? I try to explain him but he never understand. I’m attention seeker.

  • If you’re not happy that I “copy and pasted” it then u can leave thi comment
    100 Reasons Why You Should Stay Alive

    1. Your friends, your family, and your pets would miss you.

    2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.

    3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.

    4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.

    5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.

    6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.

    7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.

    8. You are amazing.

    9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.

    10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.

    11. I love you. Platonically. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.

    12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.

    13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.

    14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.

    15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.

    16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?

    17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, handsome, and to someone you are perfect.

    18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…

    19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.

    20. Listening to incredibly loud music.

    21. Being alive is just really good.

    22. Not being alive is really bad. And boring.

    23. Finding your soulmate.

    24. Red pandas. Just… THEY ARE SO CUTE!!

    25. Going to diners at three in the morning.

    26. Really soft pillows. Or blankets.

    27. Eating pizza in New York City.

    28. Proving people wrong with your success. Take that!

    29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. Take that!

    30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.

    31. Being able to help other people.

    32. Bonfires.

    33. Sitting on rooftops.

    34. Seeing every single country in the world. And not being ignored. Because, y’know, if you were dead everyone would run into you… it would suck.

    35. Going on roadtrips. Have fun doing that as a ghost, or whatever.

    36. You might win the lottery someday, who knows! How would you enter while you’re dead?!

    37. Listening to music in your own special place.

    38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower, staring down at everyone with the wind in your hair.

    39. Taking really cool pictures.

    40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.

    41. Hearing crazy stories.

    42. Telling crazy stories.

    43. Eating ice cream on a hot day with your best friends.

    44. More interesting books or episodes could come out, you never know. It’s gonna be hard to get books or watch Netflix/Hulu/Etc while you’re dead.

    45. Travelling to another planet someday. It’s gonna happen.

    46. Having an underwater house.

    47. Randomly running into your hero on the street

    48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.

    49. Trampolines.

    50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.

    51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke.

    52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.

    53. People do care.

    54. Treehouses, you won’t really be able to have a treehouse while dead.

    55. Hanging out with your soulmate in a treehouse

    55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees.

    56. I love you. Platonically.

    57. I care about you.

    58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!

    59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. You won’t even be influenced by it.


    61. Starbucks. Or caribou coffee.

    62. Hugs. The kind that make you squeal because of how tight they are, the kind that you really love.

    63. Stargazing with your favorite person in this universe at 4am because you can’t sleep, the grass brushing against your toes as you snuggle together.

    64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.

    65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.

    66. Now you could change the world.

    67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. Maybe you already have.

    68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.

    69. You can’t look at any more memes if you’re dead.

    70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.

    71. Making snow angels.

    72. Making snowmen.

    73. Snowball fights.

    74. Life is what you make of it.

    75. Everybody has a talent.

    76. Laughing until you cry, with your stomach screaming and your lungs flaring in heat. Rolling on the floor, grinning ear to ear.

    77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.

    78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.

    79. It’s possible to turn frowns upside down.

    80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s crap, and never let them take you alive.

    81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.

    82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.

    83. One day your smile will be real. It will, I promise you.

    84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.

    85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.

    86. Laughing insanely hard with your best friends.

    87. Eating weird food.

    88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.

    89. Sleeping in all day.

    90. Creating something you’re proud of.

    91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud that you didn’t commit. And if you did, feeling regret that you did.

    92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.

    u93. Coffee.

    94. The new season of your favorite show.

    95. Staying up late with your best friend.

    96. Being stupid in public because you just can.

    97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?

    98. Being able to hug that one person you haven’t seen in years

    99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.

    100. But, the final and most important one is just being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen.

    dm me on tiktok if u need anythinggodsfaithfulchild
    🙂 yeah i believe in God

  • I think of myself like a horse that breaks its leg. It just needs to be put down. It’s not fair that I don’t have a way to be at peace. Why can’t I die peacefully.

  • When I was young I always pray to God to make my family be together again especially when it’s Christmas and New Year. I always told Him that if he can make my family complete again He can now take my life or gave it to someone who really wanted to live. But til now He didn’t listen to me, my family will not be complete forever.

    I was 6 yrs old when I start questioning why I’m still here. My family was already broken, my mother, father and even my sisters already left me alone.
    Til’ now i always hurt myself and i suffered from anger. Still a suicidal person.

    Hope I can make it til next year.

  • Depression and anxiety and suicidal thoughts very bad experiences in my life I try kill myself 2 times in my life butt doctors in London they save life butt I had treated from mental health care hospital

  • If anyone is reading this is 2020, are you finding that the mass lockdown is exacabating your suicidal thoughts? Mine are just terrible at the moment.
    I’m almost 37 and I have been having these thoughts since childhood, only a very small handful of people in my life know about my mental health, I find it so uncomfortable and shameful to talk about, especially when I get comments like “you don’t seem like the type of person to get depressed…” or “what have you got to be depressed about?”. I figure that on the outside, I come across as a very “together” person, but it’s just a bubby façade…
    I have come to realise that it is only the love that I have for kids that keep me alive, as much as I want to end things, I couldn’t bare to leave them…
    I have seen multiple counsellors over the years but I usually only last a few sessions, as I said, I find talking about my mental health so damn uncomfortable and embarrassing, even to the “professionals”.

  • I’m so sorry if anyone has found themselves here. Please don’t do it! We cannot let trump outlive us! Lmao
    But for reals…. life is one shot, I mean it is for me I’m athiest ✨ this is all we got. As shit as it is… it’s life. The fricken trees the leaves, animals plants… you will never see them again. Please don’t, I have been there and it never turns out well

  • My sister is the one every day she tells me how stupid I am and she lives with me but she’s gonna move soon but she comes back all the time and I only have one real friend and I only get to see him every other week not even I wish my other “friend” would emotionally support me most people with Suicidal thoughts are older people but I’m only 10 turning 11 on October 14, 2020

  • Im starting to think its my destiny to not be here anymore. Like everything has been leading here and im only prolonging the inevitable

  • I definitely have suicidal ideation. I have no plans of killing myself but I just think about it like it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. It’s pretty hard to explain ��

  • it’s just that nothing has ever worked out. anything i touch, I fuck it up or it dies and breaks and or add something that puts me at disadvantage and they’re right. it never gets better. it’s been around 20 years and lately I am going to find that fucking buss to smack me into the next one.

  • Somehow this only made my ideation worse… maybe it’s the voice and overall sadness. It only makes me realize how many real problems I have.

  • You know about a month ago, I attempted suicide, I remember hanging from my ceiling fan, and with only probably about ten seconds left before my air circulation cut off, I untied my neck from the shirt. Because I thought of how that would affect everyone in my life. I’t’s been tough trying to hold on, but im trying. I’ve been going to church, praying, meditating all of these things nothing seems to work. I’ve called hotlines for the professional help, either the people they give me dont answer their phones or its something else. I just feel im struggling to hold on, and after getting that close to doing it, its clear that I’m a bit far gone right now and only something drastically different would help me from this point onwards.

  • I don’t know if this is the same as being suicidal but I don’t wanna kill myself. I just want to sleep and not wake up. Do you know what that is? I don’t wanna drink pills or anything I just sometimes want that to happen. I know it’s sick but it most often feels as if I’d be relieved from everything. Free. Stress free.

  • It was 3 solid years of thoughts that led to a detailed plan. I lost control. I dialed my doctor. He took the time to hold my hand and look me in the eye. “Its not your fault what happened to you. You don’t deserve this,” he said. His human touch at my lowest point helped me.

    Lost control too? Call your doctor. Please. You’re worth it. ❤

  • Small war story, I put a gun to my head and pulled the hammer back and glad I didn’t do it. I survive everything and done with all the psych wards and doctors and crazy places. Bad reaction ass injections I never needed and I calmed down. As a kid and adult they always would let it go when calm and keep in mind already cold Turkey. These motherfuckers almost killed me twice 2 different times, I’ve had tubes put in my dick no pain killers on pcp ounce and this was worst, screamed and cried like a little girl and begging please from agony. To many crazy ass places with doctors and shit people that don’t no shit. Decades of there drugs and never helped besides probably gave me heart and liver problems. I found a way with no doctors and my own concoction and just stay out of crazy shit. Shit life but less madness thanks to a methadone clinic and good marijuana. Working on my drinking and lived a messed up life with all abuse a decade before the decades of madness I caused. I refuse to trust hospitals rehabs Doctors and more ever again. Not only am I constantly let down but torture was to much. The mental health system needs a change in this country and till then I’ll stay alive and ride this mother fucker till it crumbles and still keep going. I don’t die easy for some reason and if I would have shot myself I would have survived and been more fucked up than I am now. Got a small place and no more drama or bullshit. I would say tell someone you trust but I’m no professional even if I lived all types of stupid crazy shit.

  • I have had thoughts of suicide here recently because of my Dad’s passing last month. He was 55 I’m 26. I have no girl so no hope of a wife and kids so there’s sometimes no point to go on anymore.

  • i feel like i want to suicide right now, no one ever care about me, i feel so alone, and i dont have someone to talk to in my life.:(

  • I’ve been dealing with these thoughts since 3rd grade and I never really thought of them as suicidal thoughts. But when I look back on some years of my childhood I just remember feeling so empty.

  • One of my favorite lines in a music composition is: “Suicide is played out, if your gonna die, take people with you.” It’s from verse in I’ll Bill’s songs.

  • nobody loves me, no one ever has. I have always been alone. I have never had anyone to talk to how I feel. Im 30 and still alone. Im not earning enough either. Soon im very likely to go into debt. nobody cares if i live or die. Im very insignificant.

  • I’m a teenager and I feel really lost. I feel like I don’t have a purpose in this world and I am struggling as a teenager. I feel like people don’t actually care for me and no one likes me.

    I wanted to commit suicide once but I managed to prevent myself and I’m scared that I might do it for real.

    I feel stressed, I feel alone, I feel like I have no one in life but I do, I feel depressed. My home is alright. My mother is caring but I stress her out which makes her angry then it makes me feel like I cause every single argument between people.

    I’m scared to tell my mum but I think my mum would see this and speak to me.

  • It’s 8:05 and today I loaded a gun and sat for a few hours just thinking about pulling the trigger.. then I thought about just calling the police and maybe let them do it for me. All I would need to do is point it towards them and it’s over. But I can’t do that to whomever it is that shows up. Same for doing it myself, I can’t do that to whomever in my family that ends up finding me. I can’t let them keep seeing that over and over. So I do nothing for another day

  • i want endless rest,peace, i going to dead.The Dead will give me the solution for the failures problems tension sadness pressure insults.The life had cheated me.iam going to end my life. Rip ��my soul

  • I have had both. I tried suicide over a year ago and survived. My life changed, the experience led to a spiritual awakening and realizing these thoughts and ego weren’t me. The thoughts weren’t me. That what i was underneath it wasn’t those thoughts or feelins. I was freed and saw that my perspective created my reality. I found that place where we think about it getting better. I went from years of bipolar 1 depression, drug addiction, and suicidal to liberated, positive, and rebuilding and enjoying life. I became free from the fear of death, but i still look forward and accept whenever it is my time to come. If sooner then better, not becauee i hate my life or because i am in pain, not because i hate myself, or am depressed. Because i know that death is an illusion, what is the “I Am” is eternal, that the only way to truly liberate ourselves from suffering is by releasing and dying to self not killing yourself. What i mean is tear your concepts of self, beliefs, thoughts, ideas, etc and find out the “who am i?” Answer to the question. When you do everything will be known and nirvana can be attained. Nothing else ever helped until after i decided to turn inwards.

  • I think for some people, the only reason they haven’t attempted is because they don’t want their family/friends to be sad/hurt by their decision. The fact that so many people are able too look past that or not have that worry makes you realize how screwed up you life could’ve been

  • I had suicidal toughts when I was very young, because I was harshly bullied and the teachers didn’t gave a shit ’bout me, I still have them, but not as bad as when I was in elementary school. Now, instead of whising myself dead, I wish my bullies a slow painful death, because they cannot be turned into better people and I hate them with my whole heart

  • For me it’s hard living life with no friends and little family I care for. I just feel so empty, lonely, and broken inside to the point I just don’t care. Also knowing that in about 100-200 years NO ONE will remember me. Also this world of shitty people and I can’t ever find any good people.

  • I usually say this cheerfully but it’s kinda true… “I’m suicidal, like the thought is always there in the back of my mind it just depends on if I actually contemplate going through with it”

  • I think tonight is my last night here on earth I’m trying so hard not to kill myself but I can’t help this life that I live is so bad I can’t take it not no

  • Does anyone else plan, think about and constantly imagine their own suicide but struggle to actually go through with it because of the guilt you feel around leaving your family with that kind of grief and knowing that if you did go through with it they would have no idea that it was coming or that you were planing on doing it? Literally the only thing stopping me sometimes is my mum and partner.

  • quetion.. who said it was a girl that was sexual assulted? it could be a boy. i might overthinking about this but its not only girls that gets assulted, boys does too

  • This virus has everyone coming together in different ways and it’s making my Depression unmanageable. For me Depression comes from a lot of damage by people I was supposed to be able trust-sexual mental and emotional traumas that keep me from developing close bonds with anyone. I’m scared I’ll always be alone and that I’ll find a sudden violent way out of that pain

  • So I have weird depression I want to make a plan but I feel retarded doing it so I don’t and I feel like I’m being my depressed wrong, when there’s no wrong to depression but I think about sticking a knife through my throat. I’m just afraid to die aswell

  • i dont need Any help I just Wanna Die Because im Useless i wish I can Give my Life to Somone who really Wanna live or I wish I can Donate my Eyes to Blind And my all Organs to needy.And My Flesh For Animals(As thier Food).And My Skin Be used for making Shoes.
    Really helpless
    no talent
    fuckin Losser
    Pls God Kill Me

  • I heard stay at someone’s else’s house and I immediately started crying because no one I have doesn’t really care but I care for her when she’s suicidal and needs help

  • For those who cannot tell others abt their problems
    Just write down whatever you r feeling on a piece of paper. Jot down each and everything, and also why you feel so.
    (Paper does have more patience than people… #Anne Frank..)
    After 1 or 2 days, reread everything you have written, and you will understand how silly it was to have all these negative thoughts.
    You will be in a whole new perspective soon enough. You will understand how much you deserve, and you will also learn how to cope up with it next time you feel the same.
    The best of luck to you all!

  • Everyone says that;”at the end of the day it’s your family that stays with you till the last!”.
    But Hello peoples! sometimes family can be toxic too or maybe worst than that.
    Everyone doesn’t gets to be her daddy’s princess or his mommy’s prince.
    You gotta fight your own fight alone!

  • Can you explain, when we are doing EVERYTHING we can, to improve LIFE! It’s not getting better, I’m struggling with LIFE! I’ve been to the docs, the shrink, take meds. NOT… I repeat N O T
    My life S U CK S!!
    And I’m NOT kidding!
    I’m done with
    Positive attitude
    Law of attraction
    You name it, I’ve done it!
    Can you speak to those of us, maybe just me, that life, just Dosnt WORK! I KNOW my family will be better off WO me @ this point, thanks ❤️����

  • Can someone please tell me if you must be depressed to have suicidal thoughts?

    I have suicidal thoughts but I’m not sure if I’m depressed. I made a plan to kill myself once but it’s been 4 years since and I only get the occasional thoughts. Seeing as their once or twice a month I don’t think I’m depressed but who knows?

  • I have multiple sclerosis and I’ve had it dealing with this disease day in and out. Every day, always in pain taking meds that don’t do much. I feel like I’m paying a life sentence slowly deteriorating and dying soon to become a vegetable for a crime that I’ve never committed. Then my shitty crappy religious pseudo Christian family knows that I’m dying but never take the time out to ask me how I’m doing. I see 3 reasons to live for now
    1My Daughter
    2-My wife
    3Don’t want to go to hell by taking myself out.
    The rest of my family can go suck on lemons.

  • Went to my doctor to talk about my suicidal thoughts and instead she wanted to talk about my nonexistent hypertension and my weight.

  • Why would you look in the darkest places..
    Because in the darkest places you can find what still shines..
    If it can shine in the darkest places
    You know it’s a real light..


  • I want to escape from my academic failure. I’ve ALWAYS been an excellent student my whole life and clearly I don’t know how to deal with failure. I’m hopeless. I’ve pushed my friends away for a week now, I also deleted all of my social media platform. My life is worthless and death is the only way out.

  • someone told me to die, and that triggers something inside of me. it may be selfish to take my life while others are struggling to live but how could anyone endure hearing that and still continue to live? even i, wanted to end it. i guess all the people approve my death so it should be fine right?

  • I havent been diagnosed but i relate to most of the things you say in the depression, scuicide, and anxiety

    Thats one of the scary parts

  • chill, self. Calm down.Youre not the only one crying while listening to those hurtful words that almost all of them are related to you…..

  • I’m only 12 I already want to end it it’s a joke to them but not me why please I really don’t know how or why they just don’t understand.I look at a bridge sometimes and want to jump. I’m scared to tell anybody.they are all just stupid at this point “Hah Suicidal no you aren’t” I just want to be normal and know that people don’t want to bully me. im scared to call professionals.its not a phase..

  • I’m losing this battle but whoever is out there please keep fighting. Live to see your best friends next birthday. Live to see kids grow up. Live to finish the shampoo and the conditioner at the same time. Live to win an award for being the amazing person you are. Live to stand up to whatever is holding you down. Keep living please.

  • Kid: is being bullied

    Teacher: just ignore them, they’ll stop

    Bully: keeps ruining the kid’s life

    Kid: fights back

    Teacher: HOW DARE YOU HURT ANOTHER STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Kid: they were bullying me!

    Teacher: IDC, OYU DONT HURT PEOPLE!!!!!

    Kid: commits suicide

    The whole school, and parents: video games were the cause

    This is why you avoid school

  • Does anyone ever feel like you’re not present anymore, and it’s almost as if the time had stopped altogether?
    Like you’re invisible now. Nothing you do is meaningful, useful, pleasant, or even your conscious choice.
    Well, that is me.
    Someday it will happen that I won’t be able to distract myself from this suffocating feeling anymore.
    I didn’t really want to go like this. Didn’t want to hurt people that care about me and wanted to see the world. I wanted to get through this and if I had to die, I thought I’d die for something important, or at least leave others a reason to smile when I’m gone.
    But with time it seems as this is not going to happen.
    I think I already died there, inside, a long time ago.
    But the body is still in this world, craving for anything to hold on to.
    These things slip through my fingers so easily.
    I will kill myself.
    This is my destiny.

  • I regret being myself..
    I remember my “Bad” memories..
    Please help me..
    Im going crazy..
    I don’t want to die cause there’s people i love..
    And they love me back��..
    Even my subscribers..
    But i have a lot of “Good” memories..
    I made mistakes everyday..
    Every time..
    I got depressed..
    Over and over again..
    I feel like no one like me..
    The nice people..<:)
    And i know there’s people happen to them..
    When they are on the bed..
    They remember bad things happen to them..
    And its just make it harder for them to keep alive..!

    If you are here..reading this..
    And please stop watching these kind if videos..
    It will make it worse..
    Well..this video..
    Its usefull..i think..

  • you see people always say when you die you go to hell or heaven. but one thing people dont notice is that the ground they stand on is hell. i know people say hell is burning in fire but think this if hell has a brain it would make you live in hell by making you satisfiyed ex: your family your loved one your goals and sex. if you are standing on hell rn and if you die theres only one place to go and we all whats that place.

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  • Are you thinking of suicide? Is there anything inside you that encourages you to commit suicide?

    Do you want to get rid of this and have a quiet life without cost?

    Sit on a chair and listen with headphones while you are at home

    Listen to the end

    The tone of voice in the link will remove it from you the idea of ​​suicide

    , Be patient, listen to the end, and tell us how your psyche became?

  • I’ve tried every single one of them but it’s hard to come to my friends when we’re all in quarantine and all my family are complete jerks if I tell them about my True feelings they just slap me and say don’t be silly and take away all the things I love so much for the help dumb Arsenal I’m grounded and now I even want to commit suicide even more

  • It’s not about pain anymore for me. I just don’t fit in anywhere and I’m an outcast from friends/family. I will never amount to anything and I just want to be gone.

  • kids at my old schoolwho’s funeral is it
    mewatch and wait
    my old “friends”why do you wear black, are you depressed or something?
    mewell if I was it’s cuz of you.

  • When I have this depression, I will donate money to Amputees, I love the Amputee Community so much!
    I never liked myself,and people hate My Star Wars Passion, so then I donate money to Amputees, so I can find a Actor for Vader during the Jedi Purge.

  • I remember in 8th grade i kept contemplating suicide and even carved “Im Fine” on myself just so I could convince myself I was. Even though I wasnt.
    To the person reading this:
    If you’re sad or depressed,, I won’t say everything is going to be fine because it isnt. But i know you can get through this. You’ve done this before, you can do it again. You’re very strong and im proud if you for enduring this long.

  • I’m not suicidal, I don’t wanna fucking die

    I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

    But every day I feel like dying

    Every day I feel like dying

    Why do I even try?

    Why do I even write lyrics about how I’m living the life

    When I’m battling pain and my demons at night?

    Trying to find a new outlet

    The devil pouncin’, I hear him howlin’, my vision cloudin’

    Man, I tried to escape but there ain’t no way

    Try to be strong when I deal with the pain, yeah

    But I’m ditching the coffin, so my family has options

    Gotta work ’til I’m dead so that they get the best

    Don’t wanna set up a bad example

    ‘Cause the kids looking up can’t leave in shambles

    Can’t make them think clocking out’s okay

    So fuck suicide, I’m here to stay

    Try to free my mind

    I don’t know what’s right

    Wasting all my time

    Tryna find the light

    Try to free my mind

    I don’t know what’s right

    Wasting all my time

    Tryna find the light, no no

    I’ll be out here runnin’, I’ll be runnin’ from myself now

    Gunnin’ demons down, find my way out of this hell now

    I’ll be runnin’ now, I’ll be runnin’ from myself now

    Gunnin’ demons down, find my way out of this hell now

    I’m not suicidal, I don’t wanna fucking die

    I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

    But every day I feel like dying

    Every day I feel like dying

    One too many bad thoughts inside me

    Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me

    I’m pressed with time, I’m stressed with life, my breath is ice

    I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always

    Barely standing, crawling down the hallways

    Sink into my bed, with death inside my head

    Yeah, that note you found? I didn’t mean it

    Just wish I had a better sense of meaning

    Never meant to let you down, I’ve been down and out

    Racing thoughts had to drown them out, fuck

    Never giving in I swear to God

    No matter how many times I prayed to a God I don’t believe in

    Just to see if I will never wake up, but he called my bluff

    Try to free my mind

    I don’t know what’s right

    Wasting all my time

    Tryna find the light

    Try to free my mind

    I don’t know what’s right

    Wasting all my time

    Tryna find the light, no no

    I’ll be out here runnin’, I’ll be runnin’ from myself now

    Gunnin’ demons down, find my way out of this hell now

    I’ll be runnin’ now, I’ll be runnin’ from myself now

    Gunnin’ demons down, find my way out of this hell now

    I’m not suicidal, I don’t wanna fucking die

    I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright

    But every day I feel like dying

    Every day I feel like dying

    (I’m not suicidal, I don’t wanna fucking die)

    (I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright)

    (But every day I feel like dying)

    (Every day I feel like dying)

  • I’m completely useless to the world. Few would miss me. I feel so alone and like such a failure. I don’t want to hurt myself but I feel such a magnetic desire to end my life. I’m afraid the smallest thing might push me over the edge. I feel so weak and useless. The feeling comes in like waves of the ocean. I try to stick my head above them, but I can’t. I want help but at the same time I don’t. I’m embarrassed and afraid.

  • I just dnt want to exist. Everyday I feel dead from inside. There are times when I just want to kill myself or disappear totally. But I am just living for my parents. I Dnt wanna hurt them by killing myself. I am really in a bad place. Wish I could be happy like when I was a kid. I feel like talking to others regarding how I feel but people will barely understand. I had friends but they all were fake, making fun of my condition.

  • I get suicidal thoughts out of nowhere I don’t know why. I feel down and highs. I feel randomly sad. I want to feel happy. I want to do something but then I don’t feel like doing it and rather lay down and think of nothing and close my eyes as if I’m not there. I do this sometimes for hours even though it feels like minutes.

  • I’m one of the 40 million citizens with no privilege(family, social interactions) and no insurance. They should have a place where us poor uninsured jobless people can go for free other than the morgue. Edit: a hot blonde chick with a great career would never understand in a million lifetimes. Better chance of Donald Trump understanding a “poor”.

  • I relate to 4,5,6,8,10,11,12,15,17my past put my life down in a deep place where I lost my control my life and my emotions everything and now It’s been 2 years and I’m so much better I love my life yes once in a while I get depressed and sad and lose control of my emotions and mental state but it’s been better to cope with and my life had been getting better everyday.

  • My fifth grade teacher told my mom I was a loser.
    After being bullied and abused that was the last straw and I attempted suicide. I’m so blessed to be alive today

  • In the summer of 2015 I tried to end my life. My parents didn’t care, they found me with the pills in the bathroom. First they yelled at me, then they ground me for a month. This encounter kinda thought me something. If people say they love me, they really don’t. If people say they care they really don’t. Anyone I try to talk to does not care. They say I’m attention-seeking or that I’m ungrateful for the life I was given. Sure this is the life I was given, but I don’t want to live it.

  • I don’t know you but… just know that you’re more than enough ✨ live your life the way you want don’t care what other people say about you ❤️ me too I was so depressed, I hated myself I saw myself as the ugliest person on the world, I felt so lonely �� but then, I realized that I was born for a reason! I kept fighting, I understood that everyone is beautiful by his own way, everybody has Beauty but not everyone can see it ❤️you are more loved than u think �� i understood that one day i‘ll find the right person ❤️ just love yourself the way you are ✨

  • I truly do….I want the pain to go away….and I do want to die….I’m too scared tho, scared to….leave I guess, but I want to tho, really bad:(

  • I just want to say, being with someone else really helps. For me it’s like a timer waiting for the day I decide to cut, though the timer slows down if I hang out with someone else. Idk how to explain it without sounding weird it’s just how it works for me.

  • Is suicide an escape from this horrible world? or from your ugly situation? That you get a relief! Well, let me tell you the truth, one thing about suicide that I know well, the rest i leave for psychiatrists. If you think killing your flesh is killing yourself, you are wrong! The moment you strangle, or overdose or throw your body into a train or whatever, in fact your body will crash or damaged to the extent that it cannot contain you. What does it mean? Let me enlighten your understanding. Your body is an amazing vessel that only contain your Soul (Spirit). You are in a flesh, but you are not flesh. So what happens when you commit suicide or die in any way? You just came out your body (since it does not function properly to keep you in itself) then stood outside, in another realm. You do not get rest or sleep as you think. You become more alive and more cognitive. Look in flesh you are a little bit drowsy to understand your surroundings. But out of your flesh you are lightened up all the burden /weakness of the body/flesh.

    you know almost everything instantly moreover you will be known by everybody in this another realm. But here is the scary part, anybody who goes to this realm(realm after physical death) without being saved by Christ goes to eternal damnation. The same devil who has been encouraging you to take your life may be since you’re a teenage, without being noticed, using faint voice in your mind, will have now the honor to escort you to hell where there is to much anxiety and unbearable pain. The Lord said the will be gnashing of teeth and undying worm which consumes you. There was a time I wish I would take my life due to the bad situation I faced in my life. But I knew where I would go if I commit that mistake, after comparing them I just decided to stay here on earth why would I rush hell in to my life. Believe me the worst life on earth is the best type in hell many wish it there but its impossible.

    Let me tell you one important thing before I finish. Please repent your sin and give your life to Christ, the suffering of life on earth is a t average is for about 70 years. So it lasts anyway. But the eternal suffering it is an explainable, please watch those people who experienced going to hell from youtube. Do you think all of them lie on one accord. If you read this comment thus far, may be you are chosen for salivation and to reconcile with God and become His child. And I assure you this will be the most important decision in your life time. Quit thinking about suicide and as God(now your father) either to collect your soul soon according to His will or to make life meaningful to you. Is it possible to ask God like that? Why not is it a crime to ask your father where He is? And As He did it for me He gives you a peaceful and meaningful life. Because God is not a respecter of man if He does it for one He does it for anyone. Everyone is loved by God to extent that He sacrifice His only son. So you and me are the most expensive, precious beings of the whole universe. So give your life to God, invite him to your boring life, then ask Him whatever you like to do it for you. But don’t you dare to do it by yourself. Look all the creation of God! Have you ever seen any animal decides to take its life? So if they don’t why you and me be like that. Because God gave us selfawareness and free will? Its not fair. We should not let animals become better of us! No way!

  • When you have no one who can understand you all they think that you’re acting so you just keep all thoughts to yourself and you’re always alone….

  • I got survivors guilt when I was 7. Two of my friends were shoot. Still haunted to this day about it and I’m 11. Witch brought me depression and social anxiety.

  • When people say it’s okay then it becomes worse I just learn how to fake smile..but Dont be like me talk to someone even if it’s hard u got it trust me we can get through this

  • Look. Life in this world is worthless. That’s true. But it’s also most likely the only life we have, which is why I’m still here (probably?). Either way even if I do have trouble, it’s not gonna be possible to help me if that trouble is just life itself. Having to work, eat, study. That’s life. But that’s also what’s troubling, so, what are you gonna do about it? Feed me for life? Give me money for free? I do not think so. Hence, suicide is the path to get out of something I never wanted anyway.

  • I’ll sometimes be doing something and I’ll just stop, wondering wondering what the fuck I’m doing. And then I think “why am I here, what am I doing, why am I alive?”

  • “Don’t spend the night alone, call up your family, friends or lover. Tell them how you are feeling.”

    How do I not spend the night alone if I have no friends or lover?
    I actually thought this would help me…

  • I feel that everything in the world is against me and nothing but bad things are going to happen to me. I feel I’m going to lose my job my car my house. My wife has left me 6 years ago. I’ve never got over it. I don’t see anyway out as I’m on my own. No one to talk to. I’m so lonely and afraid. My mind is running away with itself. I can’t cope. I feel the only way is to die. I’m seriously considering it.

  • Everyone thinks I am a happy person but I am not I want to end it all but there are some people I do not want to leave but life is hard

  • I wasnt gonna comment but number 1 i soooo crazy that i gotta. So youre telling people no to be alone, and go sleep with the million people that are just waiting for them……….. DO I NEED to point out how wrong that is????

  • I hate a shitty person..all i do is drink and i have nothing to contribute…i dont know what to do..maybe ending it all is what i should do..there is nothing nothing nothing

  • I hate being by myself because I feel like if I am I’m so vulnerable and I just think in my Mind there are soo many reasons why I should but I just can’t do it to myself I don’t wanna hurt my

  • Hello sir. I am a 43 year old permanently disabled Army combat veteran. My diagnosis is PTSD, BPMD, OCD. I had an epic childhood on a horse ranch growing up. I enlisted in the US Army at 17. My world was shaped by the Army and the extreme stresses of my MOS and leadership duties. After 6 serious suicide attempts (the first while I was enlisted) my mind has told me that suicide was always an option. I am doing better these days and I want to thank you for your time and your messages here on Youtube. I have been sharing them with my community care counselor and she likes them a lot. I try to watch you every day and repeat the episodes that I need the most. I’ve been homeless, been inpatient more than 7 times at at least 5 different hospitals and recovery centers and incarcerated once for 59 days. When on “suicide watch” at the jail I was held in a brightly lit cell for three weeks straight with only 10 minutes of counseling once per week. This caused irreparable damage. My point is a suicide attempt can ruin your life and make things far worse. I just wanted to let people know that it has been since 2000 that all this occurred and the fight against depression and anxiety doesn’t end. It isn’t something that is “fixable” in that you mustn’t give up. And folks who are considering suicide PLEASE consider how bad it can be if you try. It will be with you forever and with those you love. PLEASE call a crisis line, tell them you are suffering. Reach out to someone you trust. After 19 years I’ve tried everything. The worst decision I made in my depression was to isolate absolutely. I am still very isolated and a person’s social skills and reasoning suffer and your view of the world warps more and more the longer you isolate. I have no family to speak of (except my wonderful daughter). Human connection is super important (I don’t take my own advice). But I understand now that as my personality changed and I had more cognitive errors; the more difficult it was to maintain or develop interpersonal relationships; thus reinforcing my distorted thoughts. I am not a believer in spiritual development or faith as my experiences have evolved my belief system into a world where human beings are the most wretched and dangerous animals on the planet. I have a service dog and she literally keeps me alive. I recommend that if you are suicidal and alone, try to get a little buddy. I can’t kill myself because no one can love my service dog like I do and we need each other. Animals have no malice, no manipulation, have absolute loyalty and will love you even if you don’t love yourself. Don’t stay all alone, please. If you can’t deal with people, a little fuzzy pal can help keep you here until you find the help you need. It doesn’t have to be a service dog. Just a pet who has endless love for you no matter how bad you feel.

    Thank you Mr. Bloch. Thank you for sharing your experiences and wisdom. I use it every day to redevelop the good person I once was.

  • I’d love to do it, I’m trying to work up the courage to but, I’m afraid of the after effects. I don’t wanna go to hell because of it

  • Im having suicidal thoughts like sometimes i feel lost in happiness world (if you don’t know what i’m saying it’s like i feel Lost in happy emotion Ù<Ú)

  • Hey u random person,if u are depressed and u need help,u need a friend,im here.I am depressed tol,i attempted suicide but i kinda failed.But i will be soonly gone cuz im tired.The only poeple who can understand u what u are goin thru are poeple like u.Dont give up

  • I don’t think that I’m capable of k*lling myself, but I just don’t care about anything, I just want that one day I go to sleep and never wake up again, and I don’t anyone to talk about it, I don’t get along very well with my parents and and don’t have any close friend, I don’t think anyone would care, maybe for 2 days or 3, but then just normal, I have been trying to avoid these ideas but every day they are getting stronger and coming more frequently:(

  • I want to do it, because I’m so tired of not being good enough.. everything I do isn’t good enough for myself and ppl that I love.. I’m just exhausted and tired:(

  • I cannot talk to my mom about my suicidal thoughts at all. She never has any sympathy for me and just gets angry that I’m making her life harder. She never helps me with anything. I’ve mostly had to emotionally support myself my entire life. That’s probably why everyone says I’m mature for my age.

    She also doesn’t want me to go to the psych hospital because the bills are too much. She makes me feel so bad about it and tells me I’m selfish and a horrible daughter. I know she wouldn’t do the same if it was bills for a psychical hospitalisation.

  • I’ve had these thoughts since I was 11 years old. I’m almost 40 now. I’ve grown up with these thoughts and I can no longer remember a point in my life when I didn’t have these thoughts. I just trudge through it because I can’t hurt my family or any of the people who depend on me.

  • It seems that every kind of person can be concern with it. The good new is we’re finally notice all of this. Centuries before no one cares.

  • This might sound odd, but one thought that helps me sometimes when I’m feeling suicidal is the fact that one day I will die, no matter what I won’t live forever.
    It can be somewhat comforting and makes me think I might as well try and have a decent life in between now and then.

  • I’m sick of witnessing so much hypocrisy in this world, while simultaneously punishing myself with guilt for my mistakes. People just don’t care, yet here I am.. dying slowly every day because I feel like an alien that can’t understand his own species.

  • My fiancé tried to kill herself last night, i cant sleep. the one time i ignored the signs and this happened. its my fault because if i had only thought, she seems okay why would she change? i gave her space thinking thats what she wanted then she attempted. i lost someone to suicide already and i am so scared. i cry all night, and i am learning as much as i can. I am so scared to lose her i love her with everything in me

  • Even though I am not a depressed patient, I was curious about what is the relationship between depression and suicidal thoughts hence I tried to find the answer and wrote an article on it. If anybody is curious like me then you can check out my article.

  • In school,they sometimes teach you about this stuff,but you never think its gonna happen to you,well atleast thats what i thought.My dad saw my uncle the day he hung himself,and you can see my dads hurt when he talks about it.All i thought was that i wouldn’t want to hurt him like that.I’ve thought about it alot.Everything just keeps getting worse and worse,until one day it will stop for good.Ive tried to act fine and like im ok,but sometimes i just feel like crying and punching a wall so fricking hard,idk it may sound stupid.Sometimes i wonder what it would be like to have never been born.So many arguments and problems would never have occured.Ive done some stupid stuff,and you dont forget things like that.Ive always been afraid to act on the thoughts,because i fear of dying,and hurting others in the process,ik ironic right?Its just a matter of time i guess.Live life to the fullest,and stay safe people.

  • Im 34 and since i was 8 i have had suicidal ideation with only one or two years of respite from this. i really struggle with this. i just go from one attempt at “starting again” to another. my life is a mess and i just dont like myself at all. i keep making stupid decisions and now im going to lose my job that iwas being supported by during covid, i just wish id caught it now. i gave up smoking in a house full of stoners and every day i have my old addiction pass under my nose. i dont have any savings and i cant afford to just move. most of the people i used to call my freinds dont even recogniser me. i despise everything at the moment. i just want the world and everything in it to fuck off. i have not really lived a happy life. not many people get to.

  • I have been fighting depression for a year, now, and it has been very, very difficult. I am an open-minded type of person so I always try to perceive things differently. But I always end up, somehow, tracing back to thoughts of suicide. My mental state has declined, dramatically, within the past month. I seldom feel happy or hopeful. My mere cowardice stops me from physical self-harm. I imagine cutting myself. The width of my palms. The length of my arms. Dripping with crimson blood. But, I remain with some sort of confidence because I know that all means of negativity will come to an end, at some point. Through optimism and perseverance, I can do this. This could just be ‘the calm before the storm’. It does not take an omniscient being to know this. We are all human. All mortal. All aware. And as long as we are aware of the truth of life, we can do this. We can live life the right way. And end it the right way, too.

  • If you’re thinking about suicide, are worried about a friend or loved one, or would like emotional support, the Suicide Prevention Lifeline network is available 24/7 across the United States. Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or visit to chat and find additional crisis services and hotlines. The Lifeline is available for everyone, is free, and confidential. You can also reach out to the Crisis Text Line by texting HOME to 741741 to connect with a Crisis Counselor for free 24/7 support.

  • this may only be me, but i think that atleast 10% or more in this comments are either ”drama queens” or just here for support, because for some odd reason they think they can change anything just by one god damn awful comment like ”hope you doing fine❤️” like jesus christ like that would do anything, and yes, yes i may be a dramma queen right now, as i said, 10% or more

  • Being called a coward by a bunch of people you don’t care about is worth dying. Even if you destroy others lives it’s still worth it, that’s actually the best part. Family is a fraud and love doesn’t exist.

  • I’ve had depression for 4 years now. My depression has been worse than it is now but I’m just tired. I’m not as suicidal as I used to be but I wanna go more now because I’m just tired. It doesn’t get better. None of my friends care, fuck no one even remembered my birthday. I’ve received a lot of good advice in my life so I wanted to pass it on before I go.

    For the people who struggle with anxiety or can’t stop worrying: “worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but gets you nowhere”

    For the people with depression and suicidal thoughts this one is for you “I know you want to die. Go ahead, try. You’ll see yourself struggling. You don’t want to die, you just want to kill the person you are at the moment. So don’t give up. Please.”

    I might edit this and put some more idk.
    I love you all so much

  • It shocks me to see people that have everything. Money fame family. And still commit suicide. What chance do I have in life with no money no family no nothing

  • I’m going to watch this when I can. I’ve not been faithful to my husband now our marriage is ending. I feel like being killed or committing suicide but I have a toddler to focus on. What can I do?

  • What if I can’t stop? It’s better to do suicide if I am useless for everyone. Isn’t it? I don’t wanna see tomorrow. I’m afraid to face tomorrow. Why people are always blaming me? Why? Why? I already know I’m useless. But do they have to blame me like always? Can’t they say it’s okay? Why? Is it really difficult to say to me “it’s okay it’ll be fine”?Why?

  • Don’t know if other depressed individuals have this issue but I figured out that life is only about pursuing superficial and temporary purposes like getting a job/ career, earning money, spending time with family and friends, etc. to keep us externally “fulfilled” while wondering what would truly give us an everlasting internal and spiritual abundance so we won’t only have to do or go search for these external things that’ll only hypnotize us into thinking that existing is meaningful and worthwhile. To me, all of these daily goals, dreams, and hobbies are like bubbles… I know they’re nice and pretty to chase after hence give us temporary positive feelings. However, they do not carry an eternal spiritual fulfillment because it all becomes empty again once they’re popped / pursued. Then in the end, do they really mean something once we die? Will they be able to save our souls and let us die peacefully? I don’t think so.That’s why they aren’t able to heal me from being depressed and suicidal.

  • The worst part is that sometimes you can’t even pin point the cause of the depression so it’s hard to see a solution. My mind is telling me the problem is simply life itself as opposed to a single event. I’m really struggling through life at this point.

  • I used to cry every night. Im crying and drowning by my own thoughts. There was a time i thought leaving this world was really the only option. One night i looked towards my future and asked myself if my pain will ever go away?
    I hate myself for not being brave enough to show my weakness,sadness,my tears and stuffs to my family and my close friend, im scared they would tell me im dramatic and ignored me. But im also feel guilty when people cared for me. I blocked everyone from knowing my true self due to my low self-esteem. Its so fucked up.
    I feel like everyone around me is moving forward and im stuck, i feel like i never going to be anything. And its sucks! Everynight im scared for my future will be. No direction to head to. So frustrating. Im suffering more than anything.
    My friends pursuing what they want at their college life while im here waiting for job opportunity so that i can support my family financial. Its like im left behind while others wings are starting to grow. Im here waiting for someone who will teach me how to walk.

  • I work in customer services. I find it so hard when some of my customers say ‘i’m loosing the will to live’ over such trivial things. I think to myself ‘if you are going through what I am you would literally be loosing the will to live!’ ��

  • Being told selfish by the people who you thought would help you heal. Being told to “just grow up” by the people who you thought you could seek refuge. These comments makes it more uncomfortable to live, makes you think you are really just a piece of junk spreading your rust. We need help to feel better not worse. ������

  • With brain injuries at 70, and poverty, why stick around? In order to lift depression, you have see a way. In poverty there is no quality of life.

  • I’m always thinking about suicide maybe my parents always being mean to me for even gitting an a in school maybe couse I’m alive

  • I’m am only 18 I feel sad and suicidal every day tomorrow I’ll be taking my family dog to be put down by myself and I’m not looking forward to it I feel like hanging myself so I don’t have to take her I wish my parents could understand what I go through everyday we have had her for 10 years now that’s half my life I still feel like a little kid it’s almost to much to bare���� I wish I had some one to talk to �� pray I’m still alive ��

  • I feel like taking my life every single day.I have been bullied,ignored and hurt by so many people since childhood up to the present day due to my deformity.People are cruel and society is vile and getting worse.Losing the fight day by day and clinging on due to the love of my son and girlfriend.Please god i prey for peace.

  • What is your source of pain?

    I have a child that I barely see because I was unfaithful in a relationship.

    It’s been years, and I still dont know why I was unfaithful. I still feel like a coward for not being able to control my inhibition. I feel like the worst deadbeat dad, because I grew up not knowing my biological father and still managed to commit the same mistakes. I feel like the worst possible friend for causing my best friend probably some of the greatest grief they ever felt.

    I want to kill myself because I already caused too much pain. What am I good for then? I cant even sustain myself and I find myself struggling with substance abuse. I’ve seen where this goes… sometimes I feel like it’s my only choice…

  • I’m watching this video because my grandad passed away 16 days ago and yesterday my dog that iv had for 4 years passed away I’m 12 neerly 13 and I don’t know what to do anymore…
    Please don’t send hate to me

  • Good morning but am going True the same thing right now and it hurt because I cry a lot and I don’t want to I Ham myself I just want it to stop but right now am just praying to god that it Does not happen if u can hlep me please say something thanks u

  • Thank you Douglas from the bottom of my heart for all your lifesaving videos.You probably don’t knoe how many lives God has enabled you to save through your almost unbearable suffering…..Dr Andrew Docherty, Glasgow, Scotland,Uk

  • I’m about to end it all, i don’t see a way out anymore.. My body is full of psoriasis, i have fungul problems througout my whole body, my hair is falling out, i feel so much pain from my childhood. I’ve tried everything but nothing helps, there is not one day that goes by without me thinking about ending it all, i can’t do this anymore. I’ve been suffering since i was a baby ��.

  • Hey guys i wanna ask, i’ve been having this kinda “imagination” of slitting my wrist, and just imagining if i killed myself, and it’s quite often, but i never really try it.. it’s just in my head. And I don’t think that i have that much problems in my life. Is that considered as “suicidal thoughts” or it’s nothing to worry about?

  • pain when will stop.
    I cant take pain.
    Family don’t understand.
    This is what my family says.
    Man up! It will pass!
    Death is the answer for me..

  • I tried to get a therapist but it wont work for my mom and thats when i started to give up hope againi felt like i was worthless and no hope for me

  • I made a decision to request a switch of apts because of harassment problems with a neighbor. I really agonized about taking the action to get the doctors note and include it in my housing recert. I didnt hear anything back. Tonite my key fob wouldnt open any of the doors to my building. I really dont think I can tolerate a campaign of harassment from landlord in addition to other mental health issues. I feel really desperate now. I cant kill myself. I wish I could just be dead. I had a nice life until I made a terrible decision to relocate 5 years ago. I have reached out for support. It has not been successful. Ive lost everything.

  • Hi, there. I just walking through the youtube, trying to find how to get rid of my suicidal thoughts. And I found this video. I’m literally crying while typing this comment, bcs I literally don’t know what to do with my life. I keep thinking about killing myself everyday, I have nightmare every night, I really have no idea how to end my misery than to end my own life. I do really know that I need help. But it costs a lot and I have nothing because my parents dump me since I was a kid and since then I struggle with my own self for living. Would anyone who read this help me? If no one read this and reach me, I really don’t know what to do with my life…

  • I’m a teen and teens are known to be depressed because it is a difficult time. And right now people may say that I’m not dealing with much but in my head I think about how good it would be to die. School is really hard for me because I’m not smart. And I get yelled at by my parents about my grades and all my brain thinks Is that if I die all the pain and struggles in my life would disappear. And that is what I’m thinking right now. I just want to die.

  • I have suicidal thoughts because I do not want type one diabetes anymore.. it’s a very difficult disease to manage and if I’m dead I won’t have to manage it anymore.

  • Thank u so much. Really helped. Can really relate.
    Hopefully now can adopt and change my life using similar techniques and pass on further help when i can myself.

  • Hello I Am Sixteen Years Old
    I Always argue and fight with my parents and trouble them, i feel they have done evrything for me and i could not give them anything back in return ever and only made them feel ashamed that i was their son.
    I have no friends no personality no looks no one to talk to no one to share things with no one to cry with no one to laugh with.I am ugly,i am not good at any sport or any studies i am not good in talking i am not smart i am dumb i am a load on everyone,people feel ashamed to call me their friend
    Living this life is just a waste and also a load to people.Instead i can end it better than troubling people and keep feeling disgusting about being me for the rest of my life
    I know i am different i question myself why i am like this
    I dont want such a life

  • I’ve battled depression and anxiety for the last 25 or so years, off and on, and have had many periods when I felt absolutely exhausted in life, beaten down, hopeless and helpless. I felt incredibly desperate and had no one to turn to for help. I felt like needed peace at any cost and would pray to God that he would end my suffering or take me from this place. I STILL go through this on occasion. What has helped me in the past, and to this day, to get through these periods is this. I don’t consider myself overly religious, but I do have enough faith to be fearful of the possibility that heaven and hell COULD exist. If that’s the case, then I believe that ending my own life, without the will of God would likely condemn me to eternal hell. Our lives here on earth, in human form are only a blip, life is very short in the grand scheme of things. So, would it seem like a fair trade to live eternity in hell, just to escape an unpleasant, but such short existence here on earth? That doesn’t seem like an even trade at all. Perhaps I will wind up going to hell anyway, I hope not, but one never really knows, do they? Anyway, I fight through these periods and I continue on, in hopes that God recognizes my struggle and my dedication and perseverance to fight through my battle, HOPEFULLY allowing me to live in HIS house when I leave this earth. I also have my dog, who has been through A LOT of dark times with me, she has saved me from myself more than I can count and I can’t stand the thought of leaving her to suffer without me. I mean lord only knows what would happen to her if I wasn’t here to look after her and she doesn’t deserve that.

  • i used to be suicidal and ended up in the hospital a few years back. now i am keeping myself sane by lifting weights and and exercising a lot and I feel good. i even got to lose a few pounds off my paunch. i feel like exercise has helped me a lot with coping with suicidal thoughts and I only take two meds. i am worried on how I can refill my meds through this crazy world or crisis that we are going through. i guess my doctor will work out with me something. she took out one of my meds that was helping me sleep too much. now I have been sleeping less and at least 12 to 11 hours. and I am getting better at exercising longer and better. thankful for that.

  • Is anyone out here who has no depression or any other mental illness but wants still just stop existing. Even tho you have a lovely family and a good life and everything might be possible but you don‘t see it as such. Like everything is just meaningless and nothing changes. I always think it would be easier when I die, because it’s so exhausting to be alive. I don’t have any dreams that seem realistic. Lately I’m not interested in anything and every day is the same except work. I don’t think I’m made for this life. When I compare myself to others I don’t fit in. I’ve never had the the feeling to belong anywhere. I’m so weak and don’t believe in myself. I simply wouldn’t make it in life. So it seems like my death is not a real loss. But I will never do it, because I’m to afraid and I love my family. But there is still the thought that my death is the best solution to end my trivial life… idc. Honestly I’m ashamed of myself because there a people out there who need to carry so much weight and live under really bad conditions. And I’m complaining all the time…

  • I tried to suicide many times and then i found a gurl that would help me to escape my pain then I start feeling pain in my back after i did a surgery, they didn’t do it will, she stayed with me until i got better then i was clearly forgot about my pain with her i even forgot that I’m sickness boy but then her family forced her to leave me and they took her away from me, since that time I’m in pain and I’m trying and praying for god to just take my soul back, help me and pray for me to leave this earth next morning

  • I came here to seek advice and help,
    i dream about suicide or other people killing me. and outside of dreams i have suicidal thoughts frequently. Am i supposed to search for help or should i not be bothered?
    If so, Who should i go to?

  • My mind started designing a plan to end my life. It said to use a gun, but then my brain started thinking “but what if I don’t kill myself and just become a vegetable?” That’s when my brain said “why not use 2 guns and fire both simultaneously” then it got to the thinking ” what if you still don’t die” that’s when it came up with the perfect plan “use 2 guns simultaneously while in a car with a hose coming from the exhaust in case the gun shots don’t kill me, the carbon monoxide will”. I would say I scare myself with these kind of thoughts but I have no fear and get the thinking “if I’m just a psychopath then I’m just a disgusting human that doesn’t deserve to live.”

  • I’m in an agonising depression at the moment and feel so lonely. Praying it will lift.
    This video is helping, thank you. The words at the end are incredible ⚘

  • Important question if someone important to me leaves me or die’s every year. Will that be called frequency trama? I personally think it does because I am still a child (not even a teenager) and this has been going on since I was 8, so 5 years.

  • i’m not depressed, it’s just i have the thoughts. like “what if i cut my wrist”. but i don’t want to even die. and it’s a struggle and i cry and cry and cry because it’s always so the first thing on my mind all the time.

  • It is really really intense and at some point it even gets soo physical. I feel real physical pain when I have that thoughts. My chest burns like the worst reflux. I don’t know where to go neither where to hide, because it won’t do anything. I can’t leave myself behind. It feels like a spell, but the cure is also an end, so there is no cure. life is ridiculous so am I. My morning blues became morning blurs, no blue there anymore. Only a deep dark greyish nothing. I fight to 2 hours every day to overcome that first state of being awake. A state full of mental parasites whispering to me that killing myself would be a decent move. These thoughts aren’t even that personal, which is the worst about them.

  • i have been suffering from suicidal ideation since childhood but i came to know about it recently that its a mental disorder
    the intensity of suicidal ideation is increasing day by day due to consistent failures in my life
    moreover i have hardly 2-3 years in my life to get something under my belt due to family problems if i again fail i am afraid this disease may take my life

  • I’m getting suicidal thoughts on a regular basis because of what happened to me in a bout of mental illness.
    It’s real and it’s scary, just want these terrible feelings to stop. This is the best video I’ve found on the subject… thanks for your support.

  • It’s much more difficult if you live in a third world country like me because either doctors or psychotherapists are much less prepared or capable, or you just don’t have the money to pay for one visit, let alone several visits or the expensive medications.

  • This was really useful. My sister committed suicide after many years struggling with depression and I work with depressed clients as a counsellor. Thank you for sharing your story ����

  • I don’t wanna die, but also just don’t wanna live.
    i know it doesn’t really makes sence but it describes the best how i feel sometimes…
    Since me and my mother moved to an other country after my parents divorce i never really found true friends. I’m alone now for about 6 years. I feel like i don’t fit in anywhere.

  • This guy I was really in love with cheated on me and he still has her in his life and I’m so heartbroken and disappointed in him. He lied so much about everything. Really hurt

  • Sometimes I just start thinking what’s the point
    I’m almost 16 now and I can’t believe I’m about to finish school just to work all my life
    It all just seems pointless

  • Thanks Douglas for this very informative video. I have mental illness all my life. From a small age I was placed in Special Ed. Where I experienced hell on earth. I went to the Psychiatrist for my meds for Manic Depression known now as Bipolar Disorder. Many times I would self medicate because I felt very nervous and stressed out. I had suicidal thoughts all my life but learned to live with them as a part of my illness. I am now 53 years old and one thing is true that Old habits die hard. Impulse behavior is probably the most dangerous aspect of my illness. From gambling to having unprotected sex sometimes 5 times a day to shoplifting to alcohol to drugs to overeating and to living on the fringes. I hear voices that tell me all kinds of perverse things. I learned to live with them with the help of my meds. Everyone is different but some of us learned to live with our illness. I rather deal with it than complain. Thank again Douglas for this fine video.

  • Here is a hug for those who never got one when they needed one��‍♀️��‍♀️�� Here is a few words of comfort for those who never heard them when they needed to hear them “It’s going to be okay, you’re alright, you’re safe, you’re loved and cared for. You will get through this. You’re not alone.” And some words to carry you forth Remember You are stronger than you think, braver than you feel, smarter than you know,life is tough but so are you! Peace and happiness be with you all ��✌��

  • I feel like a burden to everyone around me and that I should kill my self. Its all the time, I don’t have a therapist and I don’t really think I need one I haven’t made any plans to do it for about 3 years now. My first suicidal thought was when I was 9. Its always just there is the back of my mind ‘your being annoying i should stop talking to them, just kill myself’ ‘everyone hates you, the world would be better off without me’ y’know stuff like that, I just kinda live with it my bff hows I confide in her about it, she might aswell be my therapist. I don’t know if its going to get worse when I go into high school this fall, maybe, but anyway sorry for rambling on. Have a great day y’all��

  • “Commiting suicide will end everything including the amazing days ahead” and how exactly do you know I’ll experience amazing days? People use to say to suicidal people that they can’t predict the future yet you who are trying to help can? Smh

  • I took 2 grams of prozac on may 22nd. I’m one month clean of cutting. I have a list of things I would have missed out on if I died and I know there’s a timeline where I did. That being said, I feel no sense of pride for trying to recover

  • My mums had to watch all her siblings pass before her and I’ve sat with her through every one and seen what it did to her. I resent those memories, I just want it to stop.

  • Life is unfair life is suffering and corrupt a lot of people don t asked to be born if their was a easy way to get out of this life a lot of people would already be out of their miserable life

  • I always remember when I tried to suicide, that I wanted my life to end so the pain will end. I had 16 years, and I thought that I’ve seen it all, that my life was miserable and that was it. I remember, how terrible, I was convinced that there was nothing left for me, this one point i will add to they video (the other things are perfect), don’t ever get convinced that you know everything, and you have nothing more to see, because is a great lie. I’m ok now, that happened long time ago, be strong, and always seek help. Be like a soldier, even if you are injured, and you lost a lot of blood, and you have no ammo left, and the enemy is coming to you, shout: “I will defend this position at all costs, so if you even give me a stick, I’ll fight them”, this is how asking for help is needed to be seen, not like you are a poor thing that wants attention.

  • I have dysthymia and I first thought of killing myself in 2011, and today I regret not having done that; a lot of pleasurable things happened since then, but I still think life is not worth living, I just don’t have the courage to end it all ( I mean, because of the pain and the fear of failure; I’m an atheist, so I don’t bother thinking about an afterlife).

  • Lovely. Douglas Bloch! You are doing good work. Your demeanor is so soothing, with a gravitas that betokens your own experience and survival of dark nights — by sharing which you now help others immersed in same. This sharing with its help to us all is a high calling that you are answering… please, do not stop.

  • Hi I love you! Guess what, I’m your new therapist, if you just need to vent/rant or even need advice answer in the replies. I will reply to every reply and not with some “Aw I’m so sorry I hope it gets better”shit. I won’t judge or throw hate, I’m here for you hun.

  • Im 10 years old and im having i crisis, if this timeline happens to make me die, then i will cease to exist in the universe but if i dont exist then there is no “me” in the world to die. So i reset and live through the same life over and over. Why did my brain find out about this.

  • I cried while watching this video. this is my 2nd time watching it.. i’ve been having suicidal thoughts lately.. and i tried it earlier.. today.. but.. the knive wasn’t sharp enough, so i ended up throwing the knive and watch youtube.

  • I’ve been depressed for over a year now and for the past couple of weeks I’ve just been feeling this really strong urge to just give up and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been cutting since may last year and I’m still struggling. what do I do? Please, any advice would be amazing

  • Can anyone tell me why exactly
    having suicidal thoughts is so bad for you? I mean, really, what is so bad about non-being, i.e. death?

  • i don’t think i am suicidal but i keep thinking about different scenarios in which i could end my life but i don’t have any plans or drivr to physically do anything but keep getting scared that one day it won’t just be a passing thought and its scary because logically i know it would severely effect my family but im still scared that one day it might become too much. im already made ti feel like a burden at home but if i told anyone it would be extra stress for them to deal with and having adhd and being difficult to raise is has already been enough for them

    ive had passive suicidal ideation for about 4 years now but lately my mind will randomly wander and i will imagine myself in situations where i am taking my own life… i am scared of even the thought of rejection so talking to any family members doesn’t seem like an option but i will have to do something before i spiral further. ugh
    it’ll be fine im sure…

  • I don’t wanna die I just want relief from life. I just wanna step away from reality at least for a day I want to be free…

    Or just to fall asleep and never wake up

  • 100 Reasons why you shouldn’t commit suicide.
    1. We would miss you.
    2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself, if you failed or just simply left scars or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
    3. It does get better. Believe it or not, it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
    4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
    5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
    6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
    7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
    8. You are amazing.
    9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
    10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
    11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
    12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
    13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
    14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
    15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
    16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
    17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
    18. Think about your favorite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
    19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
    20. Listening to incredibly loud music
    21. Being alive is just really good.
    22. Not being alive is really bad.
    23. Finding your soulmate.
    24. Red pandas
    25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
    26. Really soft pillows.
    27. Eating pizza in New York City.
    28. Proving people wrong with your success.
    29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
    30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
    31. Being able to help other people.
    32. Bonfires.
    33. Sitting on rooftops.
    34. Seeing every single country in the world.
    35. Going on road trips.
    36. You might win the lottery someday.
    37. Listening to music on a record player.
    38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
    39. Taking really cool pictures.
    40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
    41. Hearing crazy stories.
    42. Telling crazy stories.
    43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
    44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
    45. Traveling to another planet someday.
    46. Having an underwater house.
    47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
    48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
    49. Trampolines.
    50. Think about your favorite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
    51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
    52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
    53. People do care.
    54. Treehouses
    55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
    55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
    56. I don’t even know you and I love you.
    57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
    58. Nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
    59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
    61. Starbucks.
    62. Hugs.
    63. Stargazing.
    64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
    65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
    66. You could change the world.
    67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
    68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
    69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.
    70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
    71. Making snow angels.
    72. Making snowmen.
    73. Snowball fights.
    74. Life is what you make of it.
    75. Everybody has talent.
    76. Laughing until you cry.
    77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
    78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
    79. It’s possible to turn frowns, upside down
    80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
    81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
    82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
    83. One day your smile will be real.
    84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
    85. Lying on the grass and laughing at the clouds.
    86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
    87. Eating crazy food.
    88. Staying up all night watching your favorite films with a loved one.
    89. Sleeping in all day.
    90. Creating something you’re proud of.
    91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and be proud you didn’t commit suicide.
    92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
    93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
    94. The new season of Sherlock
    95. Cuddling under the stars.
    96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
    97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
    98. Being able to hug that one person you haven’t seen in years
    99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
    100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, anything could happen.

  • Great video. This helps a lot! Much appreciated. Congrats on “Going through hell, don’t stop”, use tools, this too shall pass. This harmonizes with what I’ve been telling myself. Thanks, again.

  • Anyone wanna hear a story?

    I was on omegle and me and this boy were talking and we recommended music to each other and he recommended this song to me. We got along pretty well.

  • I have a boyfriend who’s suicidal, it scares me SO MUCH… I remember him being so happy and then quarantine hit…
    * sigh * All I want is for him to be happy…

  • It’s hard enough trying to stay alive when I’m born cause my dad basically raped my mom in her sleep and I was born on accident. Its hard enough being positive when your own love ones treat you like shit saying you won’t make it no where because your such a fuck up. Its hard enough living being looked at as a walking suicide.

  • The most destroyed people smile the most just to hide the pain and just want everyone else to be happy and dont feel the way u feel

  • I am going to kill my self its my birdtday andt noo 1 give a damm about me i am merry to sum 1 i dont even love no more my holl damm life sucks abust reapt beat put nothing in life is funn i have nothing left to life for

  • I’ve honestly thought about what would happen if I weren’t here anymore before. I don’t know why. I’ve just thought about it for some reason. I’ve never really thought about attempting anything or tried anything, though. I just feel weird having thought about it, though I do have reasons, I guess.

  • What is making you depressed at the moment?

    A one small mistake and all people reacted and judge you non stop and it keeps reminding you that oh you made a mistake and they will not forgive you for that small mistake.

    It really hurtsT^T and i’ll always tell myself forget all that happened and be strong don’t let suicidal come to your not alone,your not alone,we’re all not alone. Be strong guys and fight.

  • Perfectly put does not see a future except I’m worried about what would happen to my little feral kitty that is only friendly to me and yet I don’t want to quit now before the miracles I’m out on state disability right now I want to ECT it didn’t work but the miracles is I have a 26 year retirement have a 401(k) my health insurance will be paid for life. I do need to make a will except the people I’m gonna give it to him in there not even around my family but I can’t blame them they’re all very dysfunctional and we all of us siblings started using drugs and alcohol very young. I know a very big hill I would drive off of and hopefully I don’t end up a vegetable. But from having a 5150 last year I can no longer purchase a gun. To meet death equals Peace I don’t care if there’s nothing else I just don’t wanna be tired and exhausted all the time and anxious and worried about what people think and nervous and angry and ��. Upon my death my dysfunctional siblings you basically have nothing I’m not sure how long they’ll be alive anyway will benefit greatly. I have been acting as if for so long at one point I had 20 years of clean and sober I haven’t even drank alcohol since 1987 I just recently had a one day slip so yes I don’t know about all of this too shall pass stuff. I am 61 years old and pretty much I’ve had these feelings a whole life but right now they’re really really strong

  • What things contribute towards suicide?

    1. Abuse.
    2. Bullying.
    3. Rejection.
    4. Stigma/ostracization.
    5. Lack of friends/loves ones.
    6. Loneliness.
    7. A society filled with narcissists and sociopaths.
    8. A society that’s overly-competitive and lacks empathy.
    9. Obsession with money.
    10. Obsession with social status.
    11. Pressure to be “successful”.
    12. Schools that care more about reputation than student welfare.
    13. Expensive living costs.
    14. Poverty.
    15. Unemployment.
    16. Being employed, but in a job you hate.
    17. Lacking access to necessities (healthcare).
    18. Fake people with fake “positivity”.

    To sum up all of the reasons in 1 word: Life.

  • The causes of suicide, the corrupt man needs food as well as the soul needs food, the soul needs food different must be from the creator who created man, I want you to listen to the earphones to the end and give us your opinion

  • I have suicidal thoughts pretty often it’s a daily thing, sometimes they aren’t as bad but other times it’s horrible to the point where I try my best to hold back. I’m a Christian and committing suicide is a deadly sin, which is one of the reason why I would never try to do anything like that. Is it necessary to tell my therapist about these thoughts or no?

  • I have a girlfriend. We’ve been together for the past year. I found out that she had a toxic family a few weeks before we were together. But I never knew she had anxiety and depression. Found that out 6 months into the relationship. She’s in a very tough spot. She’s from a very strict family. Her mom and dad aren’t exactly the people she wants in her life, in fact they’re the two most toxic ones, but because of her grandma’s death a few months ago, she’s now stuck with them. She’s usually with her grandparents, but her grandpa is also out of town for work. She’s now alone at home. She has cuts all over her hands because she often does it in the middle of our calls. I’m also not exactly the most understanding person when it comes to these topics. I tried to ask for help behind her back and she saw right through me. I’ve been dissapointing her in a lot of ways these past few days. And she’s getting closer and closer to suicide. She spammed goodbye stickers for half an hour yesterday. I also gave her a chance to talk with my mom since she loves her voice, but she said afterwards (without me knowing beforehand) that it was her last wish. Yesterday she said “just see in two more days”. I don’t know for sure but i think it’s a sign of something, and i don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know where to ask for help. Our country don’t even have a suicide hotline. It’s a very sensitive topic here. The only person she tells about these topics, her coming end, is me. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. The day she said was “about to come” is tomorrow. What do I do to help her? Without accidentally encouraging her to get closer to her death? My actions are slowly and slowly getting her closer, and if I do things wrong, it will be the end of it all. I really love her, from the bottom of my heart, but I don’t know how to help her. So what can I do now?

  • I have trouble with self harm. I am not as bad as I used to be, but it does happen. Cutting is a hard compulsion to shake, and I would do it in places that could be hidden, but people questioned why I would be wearing long sleeved shirts or jackets in 90 degree weather.

  • I have suicidal thoughts near daily, but have yet to enact it out because I still have responsibilities to attend to and my pride won’t let me abandon them. It’s a really weird dilemma……I want to help but I also want to leave. Sadly though, I can’t ever talk about my true emotions with anyone because they will either dismiss it or try and lock me in a mental ward.

  • I’m an expert on emotions. When I feel bad about myself I’m happy and I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy and I feel right now guilty.

  • ” I don’t want to die I just want the pain to end “
    Me: So true T-T I had 5 surgeries and my dental health isnt that good. Sometimes I want to die…

  • I can’t find a way to tell people how I feel I did once they called me…stupid for wanting to kill myself but then I thought about people who care for me

  • I attempted suicide on the eight of this month. Listen person who is watching this and wants to do it..
    It’s NOT worth it. I still want to attempt again, but it won’t help you, trust me..
    It’s painful and scary and it adds to your trauma. Instead..get medical help or talk to family/friend.

  • My close one died recently.. That made me to think about committing suicide.. I even tried to suicide.. But at the last minute I backed out.. I didn’t want to worry my parents by telling this.. I don’t have friends to talk about this.. So I often feel helpless and alone.. I am faking myself in front of others.. But the truth is I don’t like to live anymore.. I feel like committing suicide… I feel like I’m totally alone.. I feel like nobody cares or loves me.. I feel like breaking down.. ������

  • I am sorry to comment like this here, but I am having these thoughts since a month. I was okay till I watched the video. (I watched it because I wanted to find reasons behind these feelings). And now it’s feeling like I am again going into these thoughts, more deeper this time. I think it’s good to end the life at once than thinking about it thousands of time. ��

  • One of the biggest symptoms of depression:
    Feeling frequently tearful and emotional

    My brain whenever I feel sad:

    Ha bitch. You weak


  • The last time i spoke to a doctor she said she could section me for saying what i said.That was 3 years ago and i haven’t said a word since.I’ll never trust anyone again.I’m on my own.

  • I don’t know what’s happening in my life…. I want to die.. But afraid of having pain….Every night… When I go to sleep… I always pray that I never wake up ����

  • For me I feel like. I don’t get to choose if I want to be born or not. And if I go through life normally then I’ll just die anyway. At some random time and for some reason. Some people die faster than others. Some people die every before we are born. So whats wrong with me killing myself now? I never made a different or accomplished anything. I have no friends and my family doesn’t care about me. Maybe if I’m lucky they may cry for one day but then that’s it. Then they die too and were all forgotten. As if we were never born. I wish I was never born and I want to die. So far I only attended suicide once and survived.

  • I remember listening to this song in winter 2018 on my bus drive to school. I wasn’t depressed, just sad and still in listening to this song because I just love it and it was relatable for some time

  • Hi there I’m a survivor of psycological depression but still under follow-up check up. I wasn’t able to take up my medicine regularly because I have no work due to lockdown. Hope someone could help me buy my maintenance. I’m so afraid to be out of myself again. Here’s my Gcash number 09503611473

    Thank you for your generosity. Stay safe and Godbless us all ��

  • One word people. DIET. DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE IT. Makes a world of a difference. Bad diet leads to inflammation. Inflammation fudges everything up. Coming from someone with ocd. Depression and suicidal thoughts are the result of bad diet.

  • At the age of 15/16, I started showing signs of anxiety, which also turned into depression. I sought help but never got it. Realised that in the psychiatric system, you have to pretty much be dying before they’ll do anything.
    Nearly attempted suicide. A month or so later, I turned 17 and finally got diagnosed with ADHD (was also told about having had depression amongst other things). Getting this knowledge, more help and understanding myself better really helped me get back on track.
    Now I’m 20 years old, just graduated high school (which I had planned to never go through) and dream of going to university.
    I’m not saying “it’ll get better” this is just to tell my story of how it CAN get better:)

  • I’m most afraid that when I’m most helpless and miserable, such as after a cerebral hemorrhage, stroke, or heart attack, I won’t be able to kill myself, and I’ll be forced to keep on living, abused and neglected in a nursing home.
    I’d much rather eat both barrels of a shotgun than keep on living as a useless eater. ��

  • Hi there I’m a survivor of psycological depression but still under follow-up check up. I wasn’t able to take up my medicine regularly because I have no work due to lockdown. Hope someone could help me buy my maintenance. I’m so afraid to be out of myself again. Here’s my Gcash number 09503611473

    Thank you for your generosity. Stay safe and Godbless us all ��

  • Sometimes I want to just want to do things to myself to get rid of the feeling of sadness inside of me. I’m scared that the next time I feel it, I’m going to give in and leave the earth.

  • Hi. I’m 20 years old. I’m just going to say it. I have bipolar depression and anxiety. I only haven’t committed suicide because of my family. I have no friends anymore and it’s really hard to live day by day without having these thoughts. I’ve been in a hospital before for this a couple of times but medication makes me feel odd and stigmatized.. if anyone can just be like an online pen pal maybe? Or a friend? I could really use this.

  • Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it,

    Your neck is not a coat, so don’t hang it,

    Your size is not a book, so don’t judge it,

    Your life is not a film, so don’t end it.”


  • i have my elder brother and elder sister. when i was kid my uncle used to tell my parents that u had son and daughter a happy family why u guys go for 3rd child. and now I’m 25 achieved nothing in my life. still borrow money from my father. i feel myself useless and empty. I’m just a burden on my family

  • i have many suicide attempt in my mind, but i wouldnt dare to do it(in real life), because im a very dedicated person in doing everything, so if i do it(suicide), i would 100% success it.

  • I understand “Suicide” as a “Permanent Solution to a Temporary Problem”… But can it be considered “Euthanasia
    “ to a unending lifetime of pain? Anon

  • oh really Youtube?
    i tried to strangle myself only 3 times yesterday night and had sum crises
    annd u r giving me this?
    not cool dude
    not cool
    im totally fine

  • I think about suicide pretty much once or twice a week I’ve never attempted to do it but it’s always in my mind, in all honesty I really don’t enjoy life I don’t want to work I just want to do and have what I want when I want it but obviously I can’t have that. It’s selfish I know but that’s how I feel everyone is different I guess. Who knows what will happen

  • one time I was on top of a building I said I loved myself through out the years and it was my first time saying I hate myself I thought of jumping of and pretanded to until my cosiun said did you hear about that girl that jumped of a building she loved herself throughout the years but then hated herself pretanded to jump of the next thing I knew she did she jumped…

  • I hope one day to get the courage to kill myself that’s all I think abt now idk what to really do I have tried to reach out but it’s just too hard idk life sucks the world sucks anyway

  • I have been fighting depression for 4 years and I’m 10 I’m just going to end it 1 day there’s no point to live win people say such heart warming things and it just macks me want to end it even more

  • what do you do if your a kid and ur grandma doesent beleive you and wont take you to a docter my grandma is mad at me because i asked for a hamster and wont stop yelling every time i leave my room

  • “Know that it won’t be like this forever.” Can’t count how many years have gone by I’ve felt this way, yet somehow I’m still here probably since im way too stubborn to die and won’t give the universe the pleasure which just puts me at an impasse with everything.

  • At this point I have no pain im just terribly bored and empty, I don’t even want to be saved enymore lmao, dying looks so easy just one move and everything’s gone, no future no worries

    Asking for help looks so useless but I still don’t want my family to feel bad so imma just make jokes about my feelings instead

    D o n ‘ t k e r m i t s u i c i d e b o i s

  • I discovered that life was meaningless. Much later on, I learned that so was dying, so was sitting in sadness and disparity, so was giving up.

  • Thank you for the video a lot lol
    I sometimes wish for the “normal childhood” but then I know that I’m very ungrateful since I’m not enslaved nor a child soldier and my mother carried me 9 months around not for me to die. I just don’t want anything
    I feel like I created this “situation” but I can’t escape it
    I don’t want to have “depression” for sure
    I do feel like I’m a whiny attention seeker and I’m so sorry about that
    Actually pride holds me strongly
    I’m genuinely sorry

    Ah alsoI’ve checked out symptoms (I think mostly all) today and figured that it lasts for like 7-8 months now

    I’m sorry for typing this

  • I wanna die bc everyone around me is happy except for me that’s why I’m nvr smiling laughing that’s why I’m always in my room or a way from ppl for I can be happy or just not stressed and shit

  • I pray for god to do it but I can’t do it myself because if I don’t wanna feel the pain even though I think I have been through the most which I probably haven’t

  • Hey Jake Hill,if u feel down and need help we are here to help u.I am here.Cuz i am dealing with tthese dark thoughts and maybe i can help u somehow cuz the only poeple who can understand what u are goin thru are poeple like u.

  • When I get suicidal thoughts, it truly is escapism. I know that much, but how to escape this pain without ending my life? That is the answer I need..

  • Every time i have suicidal thoughts (which is every day) the only thing that stops me is that i would make people suffer. Because i hate being alive. There’s absolutly nothing that i’ve tried to drive me to think “i want to live and see the world”, i hate humans in general, i hate socializing, i get angry when people invade my sillence world, i hate the greed for money that we are ” educated” for, i hate human interaction, i should’ve actually give opurtunities for some one that actually thinks that is worth being alive, to see family, to have kids, watch grow, etc etc…I’ve worked in a enormous variaty of jobs, and the only one i identify my self with, A LOT, would be the one to eliminate the thing i hate the most, humans! I would be a wonderful hitman in my opinion. There’s milions of people that don’t deserve to breath oxigen…and if you are thinking “are you even looking for help?”. I’ve had over 4 Psichological Doctors and 1 Mental doctor. And currently with 1, but their reading is exactly the same even with exams. I’m perfectly normal, but i don’t fit in the ” human” category, i just hate everything that has to be with humans. That’s why my suicidal thoughs are always with me 24/7. Sorry to “expose” my “life” like this but i’m pretty sure there’s milions like me.

  • I just really just wanna kill my self my body just won’t let me everytime I play with my friends on xbox they always call me gay and always kick me from party for no reason and they always think I call them gay when I don’t they think I’m so mean when they are and I ain’t I’m just so done with my life i just can’t do this goodbye world…

  • I’ve had some thoughts on suicide from being bullying, My step mom doesn’t accepted me for who I am, Or how my hopes and dreams are going downhill ��
    So I just prayed to God to help me out because he loves me and you too ❤️
    So please somebody pray for me to help keeping me from doing that ✝️

  • kati: hello everybody happy thursday
    me: *watching this video just because i have suicidal thoughts*
    also me: happy…? What does that mean? (this is a joke)

  • Anyone suffering with suicidal thoughts just know you mean a lot you are meant to be here and cannot let negative emotions consume your life and happiness you got to keep strong no matter how hard it may seem

  • This video makes it seem when we tell people our problems they will understand
    I’m a teen I’ve been thing of suicide but when I do I think abt God and his plan for my life so then I cry myself to sleep

  • I feel like it won’t get better I wanna die cause of my mom I can tell she hates me but there’s is still people that I love in the world It’s a Hard decision

  • I just feel like I have no one to talk to, and my parents wouldn’t understand even if I tell them. Sometimes I also think that I should be happy since my life is better than a lot of people, but I just feel happy.

    Like at the VERY BEGINNING hitted me. I taught for some reason that it was me coz THAT was literally MY life a few years ago:)

  • 1:04
    HI, I have the same problems and I always lock myself, BECAUSE of my family and my dad wouldn’t let me sleep at other’s houses… What do I do??

  • I’m not suicidal so I don’t know what most of you are going through… But just remember, if you think nobody cards about you, take a look at your life! This might be VERY strange and awkward to most of you but if you don’t have someone to turn to turn to a nice stranger! Yes! A stranger! Most strangers will help you more than the people who are negative in your life! They believe that this person needs/ wants help badly to turn to you! They would find help or stick up to someone for you! If someone went up to me and asked for help I would nothing but help them and support them!
    Just one tip I hope helps a lot of you!♥

  • I don’t even know now, My family cares about little things. If i broke something, i got punched by my brother. Wish I end it all, I’ve tried choking myself and drowning.

  • this was hard to listen to, I can’t imagine how they feel and I wish I could take their pain away. this is so sad, I wish them love and light.

  • I’m a young person who has SA(I think) and I never told my family about this before because I don’t want to tell them and they think that I’m being dramatic because all I did was look this up and they don’t need to know I watch this for myself to know if I do these think I’m a kids so maybe I am acting crazy about something that well be gone in some years my…sister is the one who gave me a..uhhh “sad feeling” or as I would say the problem I don’t hate her I just don’t think that if we were not family we would be friends she’s a bully and she(maybe) why I have SA and thoughts like these but I don’t want to tell anyone about these because I’m a kid

  • Whenever I think about suicide, I always try to think about my lil sister. I can’t just leave her alone in this world. I may not love myself, but I love my lil sister.

  • The irony is that this is propaganda to convince people to commit suicide. No names. No actual accounts, just the spread of sorrow to justify the act. God doesn’t see this. Neither should you.

  • To those peeps who’ve been through a lot and felt like they can’t deal with living anymore, life will get better. There’s more things to experience. More things that might make you feel better. Life is so much beautiful. Don’t live for other people’s satisfaction. Some people expect the best from other people without realizing that PEOPLE AREN’T PERFECT. Live for yourself and for your happiness. You’re still fighting and there’s a reason for it. I don’t care who you are, always remember that I love you. Yes, I love you from the bottom of my heart. Tomorrow might be a good day. If it’s not, then fuck it, wait for the other days.

  • “It’s not always going to be like this”
    That’s the thing.. in my situation, I’m stuck. It’s hard to explain but I feel like I’m a constant battle within myself. I’m really scared of death but if I’m going to feel like this everyday, what’s it worth? We’re all going to die anyways

  • I think I’m still here so my mom won’t be alone, I’m one of her few social contacts. She wouldn’t be able to handle me going first on top of everything else she’s gone through in her life. I sometimes think about waiting until my mom passes before going myself. At least that way she wouldn’t have to live without me.